She be drowning inside / depleted of pride / scared no one will love her / so she run n hide / she over thinking / on everything plus that / id say she thick / but she ain't fat / she think she an f / id say she a p h / Id tell her she pretty / but still her heart aches / she be watching films / and studying the actress / bits of her body to address / she don't need that stress / then Twice a day / she'd be working in the gym / workouts and classes / working on getting slim / keeps her head down to dream / about body types in a magazine / now drastic for some plastic / hoping to feel better with in / sometimes he get vex / when all she offer is sex / incase he gets imitated / coz she learning from text / thinking brains be frowned upon / maybe she should be a cutie / doesn’t want to embarrass her man / so sticks to some dated duty / all day shopping type / and doing all the chores / those louis Vuitton heels / and bags by Michael korrs / wants braces to fix her teeth / ugly her mind screams / trying all sorts of remedies / and these £80 face creams / buying all this make up / to paste over a foundation / when he cares for the foundation / n how he can make up / hoping to give her man / a comfortable living / yet he want her to be content / with the skin that she live in / and he happy with the love / that comes from deep with in / she's come on leaps and bounds / discovering whats with in /

sometimes i like my stories / a little dramatic / low frequency tones / so it oozes that cinematic / like a lead character / whose a little charismatic / whose got to save two kids / from being tortured in an attic / thats problematic / only his mind is the tool / but one false move / could lead it all to fall / lots of people claim they can help / can they / claim to make my ego / as big as ego / as big as Kanye /so heres what i press / what i must address / sometimes i sit doing nothing / gain a head full of stress / people long to be a saviour / but only a few / expect nothing from a favour / so when you realise / with real eyes / where the real lies / you recognise the real lies/ then make them real ties / thats contract of contact / where the real deals are made / and its all compact / saying i got a platform / i must be a teacher / can my fucked up see / find a way to reach her / sometimes i feel like /my life falling apart / how can i show her heart / when i don’t know where to start / but who am i / used to sit and cry / until my body ran dry / dark thoughts like would i die / sometimes be mad happy / it can switch in a blink / then id be ever so low / caring about what people think / then it switches again / whats the message it sends / having to come to terms for / why I’m lonely with no friends /

let me turn your mind around / let show you whats in store / forget that dark cloud you under / let me show you so much more / don't scrape by on left overs / chewing on a bread crust / if i eat then you eat / baby thats trust / order us both a pizza each / eat it all in one sitting / not giving a damn fashion / coz my clothes are loose fitting / expand around the waistband / try digest a food coma / forming a mutiny against gluttony / and the cookie dough aroma / not wearing any make up / glad you comfortable with your looks / think its cute that you study / got your head in those books / forget what those others told you / wanting to control and hold you / i wanna build bit by bit / massage and unfold you / why you ask / i wanna see you do better / there’s something behind that smile /i know you a go getter / you got a gift i wanna uplift / you a ray of light / and a confident walk with that ass / is a beautiful sight / so come stay calm in my arm / watch a film n documentary / coke chocolate n popcorn / it’s complimentary

he drinks and he cheats / foreign perfume between the sheets / eyes are balling tears are falling / her confidence depletes / he stays out late / sometimes all night / returns to a where were you / the next round of the same fight / alone in her home / paranoid there’s been a theft / has he found a better version / has he already left / the thoughts make her heave / he found a better thieve / she day dreams to be / just strong enough to leave / damn she gave up on caring / so she sharing her man / big hair and a new tan / a plan to please her man / miraculous morning sober / level headed talk it over / an agreement they meet / a draw instead of defeat / they go to have sex / loosely based on a maybe / hope she doesn’t become an ex / she plans to have his baby / another woman he may find / so she’ll tight rope over lava / hoping to change his mind / hoping he’d rather become a father /

im sitting listening /wondering what I'm missing / alack of inspiration / as i lose my concentration / I'm sitting at the mac / just loop playing this track / dark thoughts raising arms / screaming war to attack / anxiety and self doubt / i think its shit and i worry / I'm over a quarter century / yet i feel no need to hurry I'm building a hideaway / they building a family / they building a career / I'm chasing a prestige tier / n i don't go out much / i feel claustrophobic / so i go to my head room / socially awkward / yet at home alone in my bedroom / i care what people think / i just wanted to fit in / yet my clothes be baggy / feel gay if they fitting / sometimes go out / feel awkward socially / people making conversation / grunt instead of speaking vocally / now where i am / i be getting a little worse / my brain and soul sinking deeper / i was born with a curse / thoughts a mile a minute / i just wish to speak out / that deep breathe left to shout / oh hello there doubt / i wonder if i did right / or did i let down my mother / a heart with dread is lead / i dribble with fear back to bed / try to turn on the light / to push a dream from within / instead I'm held and consoled / against the bosom of sin / as it strokes my head / with its fingers it comforts / I'm part of the walking dead / projecting what comes fourth / trying to keep my head north / keep the stiff upper lip / feeding me comfort food / I'm on a good trip / but in depression I'm manic / sunk quicker than titanic / be telling dark stories / as the glories cause panic / I've seen was it shall mean / friends as a script on screen / my heart shall end where it begin / among the unseen / sometimes i wear a smile / I'm usually telling a joke / i always say that I'm fine / yet get cloudy like smoke / but i do remember when / every thought is wanting to leave / so close your eyes / count to 10 / and just remember to breathe /

Meal tickets / are what relationships are now / status if they got a good job / or a lift if they drive a car / get carried away and married / if it don't fit our course / we can get a divorce / legal way to not feel any remorse / use each other as a cash caddy / we wonder why they government now / has us as single mums / and tear away baby daddy / find a new piece of arse / when feeling lone some / then repeat the process / Hoping to get a loan sum / Where's the value / where's the death do us part / does one of you look after the kids / does one have a job to start / or if a family business / is she with this / and if the police questioned / is she the alibis witness Is there a plan in place / when worlds are colliding / do you both know what to do / if one goes into hiding / are there posts on Instagram / flashing a flashy brand / or is the brunt moved through a front / incase your heads in the sand / (why do people vent / personal business in public spaces / when certain things should be / kept inside our own places / not grounded at coffee shops / or shouted on a bus / you know if / there's an informant among us) /

Here we are texting / we be verbal flexing / we spent the entire day / on our phones just sexting / you tease and you please / become an object of desire / but I've been burnt before from / the curse of your fire / your fine blue eyes stare / your lovely long brown hair / but I remember from a message / that you just don't care / I'm the attention / when he gives you none / roulette with a 45 magnum / god help this son / but he knows what it means / coz it in my genes / i can't turn down an ass / so nice in those jeans / because of the way it wobble / it’ll turn a walk to a hobble /now why can't I / just stay away from this trouble / it's all getting too much / Im starting to crave to touch / A tingling sensation / runs through my crutch / once again it's all crap / I feel I’m in the trap / I’m blinded by lust / I’m just waving the strap / because I'm easily lead / you found a way in my head / I'm a lustaholic / this binging gone see me dead / you tell these fantasies / but they becoming fears / coz as much as they please / there also in his ears / see coz you greedy / you’re attention needy / and when you don't get it / you come plead with me / you don't follow many laws / I’m kind of a lost cause / you know this about me / and manipulate it to your cause / sure I'd love to fuck / but i can't risk lady luck / we've a deal together / to still be making a quick buck / your a one night stand / I'd pillage and loot ya / but your 2 sides ain't / gonna be a part of my future / A little while in / now I'm admitting / I almost fell for your sin / I hear the distant violin / next came a txt / upset he wouldn't take you for coffee / flashbacks of every sex / you just wanting to off me / pulls the wool over my eyes / how could I be so stupid / every word lies / no such thing as Cupid /

I might catch just a little / bit of flack for this / but I wanna get this piece / I wanna say this at least / so much evil in the world / or maybe that's me / I should be more carefree / I can't / I shan't / what makes them do this / what do they demand / how is ruining someone's life / making yours better / you don't have to answer vocally / he'll write me a letter / I live at number 18 / go fuck your self street / why must these horrors / always be on repeat / but these are my views / it's always on the news / whether you want to believe / you choose / judging people on looks / and their profession / I have done once or twice / that's my confession / but why do others / take it to new heights / I did mine in my head / never set sights to start fights / but people get jealous / throw acid at people who are pretty / I don't see the point in that / it's pretty petty / and other selfish acts to each other / they someone's sister / someone's brother / each got a father n mother / if you pissed off at the world / don't do it violently / take 5 minutes in your room / cry silently / come out again with a plan / be creative man / music film art whatever / a different way to make a stand /

i know what I’ve done / tethered a bond with my son / but can you blame me  / he a lot like his mum / her heart couldn’t take it / i know i shouldn’t break it /  activities i now partake / because i can’t shake it / she was loyal and caring / she was a loving soul / her beautiful heart gift bearing / and now it takes its toll / she never raised an arm / never said a word in harm / a kind word and a smile / that  was just her charm /  12 years i been there / and i put food on the table / i remember when he was little / and his teddies there in his cradle / and the 1st time at nursery / and when i walked him to school / saw his wings floating / as he learn to swim in the pool / and when riding his bike / he fell and he broke his arm / his mum passed out / he sitting there all calm / and i’ll never hear him say dad again / i’ll never get a cuddle / and i gotta take a break / coz my heads all in muddle / the last 2 years / they went a little crazy / effects of the drink / sent the world a little hazy / got the promotion / manager got a lot of stress / drink help me unwind / find something pretty in a dress / twice a month watch her undress / as well as my wife / an arranged affair / became a full on affair / till one day out my coat / her panties in the pocket caught her glare / in the coat on the chair / thats my downfall right there / i wanna say I'm sorry / please forgive me / power went to my head / i miss you there in bed / my one friend to the end / always with an ear to lend / the rush of risking it all / its that money trend / this happiness / i don't wanna pretend / i want it all back / seek counselling to mend / i want the blanket and picnics / long walks through the park / and to reassure my son / through the nightmares in the dark /

where did i go wrong / nothing seems interesting / so I'm writing a song / coz the thoughts are wrestling / standing congesting / I'm spinning around fast / when I'm in bed nestling / I'm thinking about my past / at 3 in the morning / in a couple hours sun dawning / fear keeps me awake / and prohibits the yawning / at a lurch in church / I've pushed them away / i need to get off my perch / i want them to stay / and I'm hypocritical / i share many views / say one thing do another / I'm telling them my news / they don't like my sound / so i bury them in the ground / i tell lies so profound / there not really worth a pound / an as the day dawns / feel the scratch my crown of thorns / sold my soul to / a shop in which they pawn / I'm an empty shell / on to which they yell / and only when there gone / do i dwell / nothing in which to invest / i get it off my chest / every song is stressed / I'm fucking depressed / like batman / I'm wearing a frown / and yet in this loneliness / i drown / how hard is it to say / i want you to stay / but everything in mind / says it sounds gay / along with every thought i had / its written in a pad / reading back i feel sad / am i becoming my dad / a heart shut off / but i want the energy / people tell me to fuck off / like I'm public enemy / i got potential i never met / but they let it be / chord on a fret / a tune that was never set / i sit and huddle / i long for a cuddle / cant tell because / my words get in a muddle / yet i enjoy the recluse / and i know thats no excuse / but when I'm with people / i find no use / and i wanna do it right / but i cant make up my mind / so i need a new light / but the struggles what i find / the paranoia got me blind / I'm going out of my mind / yet people think I'm stupid / coz I'm far too kind

so she sends me a friend request / looks hot in a picture / gone in a week at best / it’s part of the mixture / misses like who that / a collaboration for music / now a reason to go / this excuse i’ll use it / pack my bags / couple pens and a pad / need it to look real / spray covers sex we had / prepare for what may entail / limit the history / every lie a detail / breadcrumb along a trail / say how she snap back / pictures on snapchat / how she lonely at night / wants me to tap that / i’m risking it all / she blowing my self centre / this gloom room of doom / cuddle my wife i’ll resent her / does the lot / talks dirty it’s hot / she got a shot / i pass out she spit in a pot / keeps it there on ice / she like to play nice / a device to entice / played like a game of dice / i’ve become the sacrifice / a fool to fall / baby dressed in merchandise / as i fund paradise / now for 18 years / my bank balance will have tears / now to explain the relation / my pain is her elation / in my wife's heart / see the mutation / karma gave the finger / as prayer to a constellation /

see i was an easy target / out there on the market / should put a steak through your heart / put you in a casket / you drew me in with your sweet words / you made the promise of more / you severed my artery / beat out the art in me / all this I'm preaching / that your the best part of me / the poetic tones / and that street slang / the stories that you created / on every word i’d hang / but then that changed / i found that strong / once open now closed / you sinking out of range / your spouting off with absurds / you weren't pushed you took a tumble / dinner time with no words / otherwise we’d rumble / you manipulated me / you madam your ace / and got me so withdrawn / and desperate for that bass / making up excuses / for why you going out / going to see another man / that i don't have any doubt / telling them there better than me / make them believe / promise them greatness / and your side their never leave / to do anything you say / cerebral cortex / vibrating like crazy / you sultry and smart / turning there minds hazy / promised bail if ever jail / o you keep them fighting / your everything i had in a pad / lonely when I'm not writing / you treat me like dirt / yet back to you i roam / still hear every word / Stockholm syndrome / but this i can still forgive you / we can work it out / couples therapy / we can talk it out /

We been up we been down / had a smile and a frown / I seen you melt down / and turn that gold to a crown / only know you a few years / our timeline is short / there's history we caught / let me resort to the report / from the words of this bum / you've come so far / they made you linger under the finger / now you shine like a star / choose to concentrate and educate / as proof got from under that roof / a go getters mind state / the plan shatterproof / wants to go to university / when she finishes college / has so much diversity / yet scared to share the knowledge / you may have troubles / like depression and anxiety / a little thing with a big heart / who wanted to help society / but don't be plagued by the fear / you still got plenty of year/ to come plan for a family / and work on your career / so let me say thank you / from up here in my cloud / glad to be part of the journey / you make me so proud /

i cant really say / what you want me to / cant really turn around / and say that I'm in love with you / please forgive the pause / had to dig deep in the drawers / to figure out the laws / to fight on my cause / but id put this message in a bottle / let it ride to different shores / everyone reading this alone / while I'm here doing my chores / just doing the dishes / we talking about our wishes wanna be able to say 3 words / white we have cuddles and kisses / but because i aint said it / doesn't mean i don't mean it / tried to show you through actions / and i know you seen it / lets go until the end / about you i told my friend / your embarrassed about your circumstance / but even that can mend / so i don't care about the status / or how they state us / as long as we on a level / and know our status / so lets be fair / I'm added stress you pull out your hair / please don't listen to the voices / lets please not go there / dismiss there espionage / the barrage to sabotage / just lay your head on the pillow / i’ll give you a body massage / i’ll makes you feel good / just because i should / then tea with 2 sugars / just because i could / got a standard job / aint won the lottery / yet I'm still one of a kind / she thinks a whole lotta me / steps around my problems / coz this she acknowledge / wants me to do better / and go back to college

I gotta pay for a gift / working the dolly shift / that's 9 till 5 / relentless give me a lift / i feel the sugar / flooding through my veins / that’s 6 days of deliveries / plus back aches and pains / how this back may bend / when stuck in these lanes / the fuck is a weekend / got more baggage than planes / what’s that racket / got my iPod on demand / we bout to fallout / it lonely like a wasteland / i’m not really vocal / so i grunt to be social / i aint to blame can’t remember your name / it aint local / so go see the console / you want someone to console / i maybe a little distracted / playing on my console / testament our relationship / it’s everything i ever gave / now i gotta take this / corrupted save to the grave / A loner with a lisp / mission check tick list / i don't like to be touched / I'm still ticklish / i get an idea / nobody ever grasp at me / getting a cold now / my voice be turning raspy /

Let me play a record / let me have your accord / something well known and popular / something that strikes a chord / in my spare time / from dawn to dusk / so I don't get bored / I like to go out and busk / Start there from 5 - 9 / then to do my 9 - 5 / then again that night / In a bar I play live / start it off real catchy / those type of ballads / test the crowd / see what hangs in the balance / and as the night go on / i’ll Throw in a different song / if everything sound familiar / you been here to long / i’ll play that old school / also throw in the new school / but that drunken karaoke / nah man we aint cool / like that drink in your hand / thats how i want your money to tipple / id give you the cold shoulder / to save mine from your dribble / putting your arm around me / holding me tight like you a leech / and you spray spit like a cobra / in your drunken speech / let me guess / you got a request / I don't care what you say / I'll throw on born in the USA / you don't like Springsteen / give me money to spring clean / I’m a damn juke box / give me a little and i’ll sing mean / thats the pros and cons / with a twist i could a playlist / a pound a song / pop rock n hip hop id be the greatest / I do this for self / don't do this for my health / if you got a Request then tip / won't hurt your wealth / and remember to tip the piano man / maaaaan!!